In India

We are now in India!!! The environment is a bit different from where we came from, but quite nice, we learned a few about Indian culture. Will be telling more later! Now nak makan murtabak original! Daa~~

Late Birthday Outings

We went out last Monday, November 9, 2009. Musz, a guy who shares the same birthday with me has been planning this trip for weeks if not months. He wanted us to celebrate our birthdays together but because of studies obligations, all of those plans had to be postponed. We went out anyway, to Lundu. The day was so calm, it was breezy, cool and calm day at the beach. Here are some pictures. As I was the camera girl and not exactly at the right state of health (yet), I didn't go into the water but took pictures of the days instead.

Musz enjoying his "tekoyong"

Me and my orange shoes

Meet Soden and Combi

a big heart filled with our names in it..

he thinks nobody saw, I did...

So cute of me to fell asleep on our way back..
honestly, I didn't even went into the water..

Singgah di Barok and makan.. I ate most of the prawns, and loving it!


after food at Barok, and Maghrib at Boyan

as we were singing our traditional-must-have-song; Memburu Rindu by Hattan, well, now she thinks she's a rockstar..

Saya Suka Encik Gebu

Saya suka org2 gebu. Entah kenapa, mereka nampak sangat sedap untuk dipelok walaupun saya tak dapat nak pelok mereka. Kalau ada bebudak kecik yang gebu, rasa macam nak picit2 muka mereka. Gebu je, bukan mokmok.. Ada kawan2 yg kegebuan pun saya sangat suka tengok. biasa saya akan berkawan, buat skandal (oooops), most of the time saya akan jadi kawan la ngan dorg. These Gebu-bian people, mereka ni sangat open. Diorang tak ambik hati and suka bercerita. Best. Jumpa geng. Biasa la saya pun gebu jugak.. (Gebu je, bukan mokmok)

Saya ada ramai kawan2 gebu yang best. Ada sorg ni saya panggil dia Boo. Dia gebu dan terer pasal kereta and motor. Dia ada motor besar, and saya suka dengar suara dia. Berlemak. Hehe.. Boo jangan marah yea.. Boo panggil saya Tel. Pendekkan dari Montel. Sesuka Boo je nak panggil saya cenggitu tapi memang best la kawan ngan dia. He's a great pal! And very sweet lak tu. Best bercerita ngan Boo.

Ada sorg lagi ni, as sedia maklum, bestfriend saya yg paling dirindui, Hanif. Dia pun gebu. Dia pun berkawan ngan En. Boo, and sorg lagi kawan dia yg sama gebu dari Labuan, Fardi. Nama Fardi best. Fardi Siswanto bin Taher. Dia gebu tapi boleh tahan comel. Suara dia, pergghhh, memang sedap. Kalau dia nak mengutuk org ke, menyumpah ke, marah macam mana pun, suara dia maintain sweet je bunyi. Kalau jadi operator telefon, xjadi nak marah la lepas dengar suara Fardi.

Time MMS, ada 2 org nama Wan. Sorg kurus and sorg gebu. Yg kurus org panggil Wan laju, yg gebu org panggil Wan Com. Derived from Wan Comel. Memang comel. Time dia menari senam seni, dia melompat2 nampak macam belon yang berenjut2. Betul2 comel. Saya suka kawan ngan dia. Mulut dia kalau buat lawak, masyaAllah, saya sampai semput asthma time MMS sebab dengar dia buat lawak je. Dia dengan sorg lagi pakcik gebu, Abg Fit. Nama dia Fitri. Tapi tu lah, Abg Fit yg x fit2.. huhu.. best dengar cerita diorg.

Ada sorg kawan saya, kat Shah Alam. Paling saya sayang. :D
Nama dia Azrul, kira best friend jauh la. Tapi jauh2 dia, dia dekat dihati dan dekat di telefon. Huhu.. Hanya kami yang memahami.

Last but not least, Encik Kingkong. King- nama yang bebudak UiTM Sarawak panggil dia. Nama dia Dasron. Dia ni pun best buat kawan. Mulut dia memang, Nauzubillah, laser la. tapi dengan certain2 org at certain2 moments, dia akan jadi saaaaaaaaangat sweet. Macam vanilla, ikut kata dia. Tapi dia kuat perasan, and sangat sensitif. Tu yg pelik tu. But overall, dia mmg baik. Sayang kawan2ku!!

Rest In Peace

Today, I turn 20. As a friend of mine said;

R.I.P. 19

Yes, RIP 19, I salute u as u came by just to make me grow. U made me laugh, u made me cry, u filled me with love and laughter, hate and disaster, u were the best and the bad ass all at the same time (year). I love u, and as I have loved u, I guess I loved u too damn much that I'm not just willing to let u go, I'm also waving as I say goodbye. So just go, and leave me alone with my new buddy. Goodbye my sweet! We will never see each other again, and I'll miss u, but we both need our separate ways.




XOXO
Nabilla Naharuddin Mohd Zain Yusoff

Teringat

Dulu, time part 1 masa masih jahiliah tentang penggunaan ATM machine, ada lah suatu hari otw nak birthday jugak, macam hari ni, (rasanya dalam tarikh yg sama tahun 2007), malam tu aku pergi la ambik duit kat ATM machine kat UiTM Kampus Samarahan Sarawak ni. Time tu sumpah jahiliah nak ambik duit, baik sangat. Nak ambik pun takut, takut habis. Sekarang ni, kalau boleh keluar RM5 pun keluar gak agaknya..dah tu je yang ada dalam akaun.. hehe..

Masa tu, aku pergi malam2, sebabnya; takut org curik (dah kata, jahiliah). Nak ambik terus banyak, RM200 sebab nak bayar hutang duit buku and nak balik 10 hari lagi (lebih kurang la, x ingat sangat). Masa tu kul 10pm. Entah kenapa entah U-Floor (foyer/lobby) tu gelap semacam, ada takut gak time tu.. Time tu aku sorg je lak kat U-Floor tu. Ok la, dapat gak jamin duit takkan dicurik.

Tengah aku mengambik duit, baru je masukkan kad, tetiba......
"Boh abiskan duit lam ya, kamek maok jwak", ada sorang mamat ni berkata2 dalam kegelapan yang teramat. Time tu, as said earlier, jahiliah. Bahasa Sarawak pun masih merangkak lagi. Cakap dia laju, sepatah haram tak paham. Yang dapat ditranslate perkataan "duit" je. Maksud dia, duit la..

Masa tu muka dia pun tak nampak, lagi dengan keadaan yang sangat gelap tu, memang terkejut beruk and takut la time tu. Aku buat bodoh je. Pastu masa duit dah keluar, aku yang lem ni terhegeh2 la memasukkan kad dalam beg duit dalam gelap2 tu. Tak pasal2, laki yang berkata2 tadi datang kat aku and ambik duit dekat ATM tu. Aku dah cuak dah. Dalam hati aku menjerit2 cakap "Duit aku tuh!" tapi...disebabkan aku freshie, aku yg lem ni stay lem jugak la.. takut punya pasal, aku senyap je.

Laki tu then bercakap dalam bahasa Sarawak, ni aku translate je..

awak either masukkan duit ni cepat dalam poket, ataupun saya ambik masuk dalam wallet saya.

Aku tak paham sangat apa yg dia cuba sampaikan, tapi aku ambik gak la duit tu, and terus masuk dalam poket and cakap

My pocket!

Then laki tu gelak sket, and then dia tanya

Kolej mana?

Gading

Ada kawan tak datang U-Floor?

Takde

Sorang ke?

Haah

Dia cakap bahasa Sarawak, tapi tak laju sangat, so boleh la aku catch up sikit2. Then dia suruh aku tunggu dia ambik duit. Aku yang masih pengecut ni pun tunggu la. Habis dia ambik duit, dia pimpin aku jalan ke kantin yang sememangnya lagi terang dari U-Floor. Bila dah nak sampai kantin, baru aku perasan yang laki tadi tu hensem giler!!! Dah lah tinggi, hensem, badan kira hot la.. perggghhh!! Tapi aku yang masih jahiliah mana mengerti semua itu.. ;p

Dah dia hantar aku, dia blah cenggitu je. Nama dia pun aku tak tau. Cakap terima kasih pun aku tak sempat. Yang aku tau, time aku part 1, dia part 6. Entah apasal aku teringat insiden ni. Rasanya sebab pergi ATM tadi kot.. hmmmmm, abg hensem, awak sape ye yang dah selamatkan saya dulu????

A wish that worth a hundred

I wish for a hundred wishes,
so I could wish some more
I wish I could turn back the time,
so I could undo them all.

Those memories, those days,
those people i meddled with,
I wish to repeat the startings,
and change the ending bits.

I wish to be rich, pretty and spoiled,
but here I am, now, I feel bored
I need a life, so I wished for one
God gave me life, with troubles that are mine.

I wish I didn't wish what I wished before
I wish I didn't say anything at all
But then remembering how my life were
I just wished my path would be ensured

I wish I know where I'd go in life
I'd walk and run according to lines
However life is not as easy
I still need to rub in the greasy

My wish is one, to change back time
I still want to relive my precious dime
I still need everything that had gone
and to make things right where they are now wronged

Let me say sorry for everything I did
Let me forgive for everything YOU did
I need to let go, I need to be free
But to forget everything, that, I can't guarantee

So now I'm finishing the things in my thought
I just feel like writing something in my blog
It was not pre-written, I did it on the spot
Sorry if it means anything, they're just from my thoughts.

Love you all!! :P

I'm sorry Mom...

Dear Mom,

I know I've been so down lately. I'm sorry if I didn't get up to yours and Dad's expectations and hope, but all I want right now is just to get up and smile like I used to. I think I lost it, somewhere. Its gonna take time for me to find it back, but I'll be back Momy, I promise u.

I'm so sorry Mom, I've been too sick these few months. My health was awkwardly irritating, but I need to bear with it. Everytime I get sick, I'll forget things. I hope I can forget certain stuff but not all of my memories, and it seems like I've lost some valuable memories as well. I also hate the fact that what the doctors said were true. Every single time I feel depressed, I'll get sick. The doc said, since a tiny wire in me failed, I lost the controls I had once very good at. Now, I'll get sick no matter the time, the place, anything.

I'm sorry Mom, I fell in love. My mistake was that I fell for someone, and my free fall was hard, I didn't even have a parachute for safety. He left me hanging, at a time when my health was quite poor too. The result, as everybody could figure out, I get sicker. I'm sorry, I lost control of my health, my head and my soul. I wish I could change the time, so to undo every little stupid decisions I made in the name of love.

I'm sorry Mom, my marks were all so low. I knew there's a possibility, a very huge possibility that I'd fail my papers.. and as I've told u Mom, I'm on the verge of breaking down. But I would like to thank you, for believe in me. Although u know that I'm flunking subjects, u are still telling to get back up. I'm going to fight, Mom. I will get back up when trouble knocks me down. I'm your daughter, I 'll be back Momy, my promise is still intact..I will be back.

Thank you Momy, for believing in me. It's going to take some time for me to get back but I will. I'm a sole survivor. I'm yours. I love you.

Your Princess
Lala
4B0220
Kolej Sri Gading
UiTM Sarawak
Malaysia